My monthly text - October 2010

∞ Working with what is present now ∞

Always look for the light in a 'dark' moment

Not so long ago I changed the one liner at the bottom of my homepage. It says: ‘We do not consciously choose everything that is in our lives right now but we can consciously choose how we deal with it now that it is here.’ This line just popped up in my head one day. I believe they call this inspiration :-).

The same thing often happens with things and events in our lives. They just pop in at a given moment. If it is something we like, we never ask ourselves whether this is the right time for it. Buuuuut, if it is something we don’t want, it always shows up at the wrong time.
“Why of all times is this happening to me now”, we ask ourselves. Or: “Now this really is the final drop”.

And that is often exactly the effect that THEY (the cosmos, the universe, God, your higher self) want to achieve. You can take no more and they get your attention and force you to do something about it.
For years, I asked myself when something like that occurred: “What have I done to deserve this?” (The first 45 years of my life) and “What have I done to create this and when did I create it?” (Between 45 and now). Pondering on both questions can really make me feel tired sometimes. My head is feeling heavy and the situation in question does not change by brooding on it. It is what it is.

Some two weeks ago, a change has been made to the software in my head. I have kind of downloaded an upgrade (read, had an attunement with dolphin energy). This resulted in the nice effect that I can now shift between two programs much faster. Whenever a situation occurs that I would have avoided if I could have - to name just two recent examples: the dishwasher breaks down and the technician cannot come earlier than in three weeks or there is no water coming out of the shower head in the bath tub and I have a head covered in shampoo -  it appears that I can now shift much easier from ‘this cannot be happening to me’ to ‘what are my options’. The solution for scenario number two was: I just used the water in the tub to rinse my head while realizing that it is not going to kill me to submerge my hair for once in heavily salted water that is not really clean anymore.

In another – much more difficult – situation that 'they' already sent me also because they have to check whether I can still apply the new software in that case - right? - it was a lot less evident but I see progress even there. After a good long cry and a day or two of just sitting around, I accepted what was present and do what I need NOW.

The British have a really nice saying about situations like this: If life gives you lemons, make lemonade.
And I read somewhere once, I believe it is a Buddhist concept, that there are only two things that can make us unhappy:
Number 1: You have something that you don’t want
Number 2: You want something that you don’t have
What if we could learn to ‘want what we have’ or maybe could just stop ‘wanting’ and begin to ‘wish for’ and ‘create’ and ‘work with what we have’, wouldn’t that solve everything? I wish you and me with all my heart that we learn to do this someday. Namaste

© Text, photo and translation: Kristina Cauwenberghs – The picture was taken in 2008 but I don’t remember the location.

September 2010

∞ Abundance ∞

My 5th weekend with the dolphins at Dolphin Heart World is getting really close. The theme for this weekend is the Flow of Abundance. As a preparation we’re asked to ponder on such questions as: “In what areas of your life are you already experiencing abundance? And where is the flow of abundance not active yet?”

According to an old legend there is a pot of gold to be found at the end of the rainbow. I don’t know whether there is a leprechaun sitting next to it to guard it.

The first thing that comes to mind when I think ‘abundance’ is ‘weight’. Yes, in that area my body absolutely knows abundance ;-). There is not a doubt in my mind about it. In material matters I don’t really experience lack either. But then some doubt crosses my mind because you can always have more. And how much is enough? An ex colleague of mine said a long time ago: “Enough money is your house completely filled with it and a huge pile on your front lawn."
But when you look around you at people who have such a huge amount of the stuff, you often notice that they do not experience abundance at all. And it looks like there never is enough money for everything you want.

These past few years have taught me that the feeling of ‘having enough’ and ‘being enough’ comes from the inside out rather than from the outside in. We all know about the latter. We take a job, make money and then we have it. How it is supposed to function the other way round is now known to my mind (very well) but I’m not always successful in manifesting it into the visible world.
I know that everything I need is already there in Spirit (see text last month) and that I just have to manifest it into every day life. The blind trust that I wrote about last time plays a major role in this and I learn to apply that now with success some of the time and without at other times. The abundance is coming ever closer now and I receive help from all around me to master this spiritual law (so I already experience abundance in this area :-).

An example. Someone who regularly comes to me for a dolphin energy session showed me the way only recently. She needed more money and asked the dolphins to help her with this. She is really good in getting visual clues during a session and was shown a leprechaun (a dwarf like creature) who offered her his pot of gold. Mission accomplished you would think. But the next time she had to ask for the same thing again. This session a few more leprechauns showed up to offer her their pots of gold but still the dolphins got the same mission next time. During this healing, the person literally saw a long lane with leprechauns and pots of gold sitting alongside. When she told me what she saw, I had an 'aha' moment. At every new session the Universe (Spirit, God) had fulfilled her wish and sent here more of what she asked for. She saw it during the session but could not allow it to manifest into the ‘real’ world yet. In an impulse I told her that maybe she could try to accept the pots of gold when more were showing up. And…. She did it. The flow is activated and now she asks the dolphins for help in other areas.

I felt abundantly grateful after this. For the lesson the dolphins had taught me as well as her but especially because I could be part of this transformation by simply opening up to the dolphin energy. Experiencing that you can help someone and standing in the flow of love and gratitude, now that really is abundance. Thank you so much!

© Text and translation: Kristina Cauwenberghs

August 2010

∞ Blind faith ∞

Doorknob photographed at Köln cathedral. Every time we open a door for the first time, we have no idea what we will find behind it. That is why this picture kind of symbolizes what my text for this month is about..

This morning I picked an angel card. It urged me to only think positive thoughts about what I wish for. And this in terms of all my relationships as well as for my professional life as for all other aspects of my life. The higher good of the earth and the universe were not mentioned but surely they can also benefit from my positive thoughts and visualizations in these turbulent times.

About a month ago during a dolphin energy session I had this image of myself walking into a grey cloud (the grey was not good or bad, it just showed me that I have to choose for myself where I’m going with my life). I couldn’t see a thing and had no idea where I was but I immediately felt the urge to just keep walking straight on and trust that something good was waiting on the other side.

I believe many of us feel like they are ‘sailing without compass’ right now, just like me in my cloud. We don’t know for sure where we are going yet but we feel that we stand at the beginning of ‘something new’ and a ‘blind trust’ that everything is just as it should be certainly is a good belief to have now. (The text ‘The Silent Prayer’ can maybe help you with this.) I made a list of some of the ‘symptoms’ I perceive in myself (and others):
- A vague urge to clean up your house and your life. Wanting to dispose of things you no longer use, to leave people behind that you no longer feel a connection with and meet new people.
- The feeling you should move to a different place or country without knowing where to go or if this is the right moment to do so.
- The feeling that you should now leave your old beliefs about yourself behind and wanting to take on new habits.
- The feeling that NOW really is the time to start taking better care of yourself in every way.
- The feeling that NOW is the moment to really start living a more environmental friendly life and take better care of Mother Earth.

If you catch yourself regularly thinking this kind of thoughts, you too are on your way into the new dimension, the New Earth that so many are talking about now.

All the above mentioned things and probably a lot more are contained in my ‘grey cloud’. And I discover them, one step at a time.
The creation of new friendships and of possibilities to work together for the higher good apparently is one of my main themes at the moment. I do things like addressing a total stranger in the middle of Chartres cathedral because I feel I really should do that and discover she is a soul mate. I meet with a group of three other people regularly because we know we have a task to do together (and even more because I feel so good when I’m with them and we share the fun and the serious matters with each other). I met with them also unexpectedly at just the right moment. And later this month I am going for a cup of coffee with a lady my husband sat next to on a flight home recently. She said she would like to get together some time. Maybe something beautiful will come out of this also. I certainly am open to the possibility.

NOW is the moment YOU and I co-create together with All That Is a New Heaven and a New Earth. How do YOU want them to look?

© Text, picture and translation: Kristina Cauwenberghs

 

The Silent Prayer
(FromTobias channelled by Geoffrey Hoppe)

In my heart, I accept my perfect Being.
I accept that the joy that I have intended is already in my life.
I accept that love I have prayed for is already within me.
I accept that the peace I have asked for is already my reality.
I accept that the abundance I have sought already fills my life.

In my truth, I accept my perfect Being.
I take responsibility for my own creations,
And all things that are within my life.
I acknowledge the power of Spirit that is within me,
And know that all things are as they should be.

In my wisdom, I accept my perfect Being.
My lessons have been carefully chosen by my Self,
And now I walk through them in full experience.
My path takes me on a sacred journey with divine purpose.
My experiences become part of All That Is.

In my knowingness, I accept my perfect Being.
In this moment, I sit in my golden chair
And know that I Am an angel of light.
I look upon the golden tray - the gift of Spirit -
And know that all of my desires already have been fulfilled.

In love for my Self, I accept my perfect Being.
I cast no judgment or burdens upon my Self.
I accept that everything in my past was given in love.
I accept that everything in this moment comes from love.
I accept that everything in my future will result in greater love.

In my Being, I accept my perfection.
And so it is.

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